Personal Log Stardate 2420.10.07

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It has been eight months since I left Cromwell to go to Betazed. It is so good to be back home aboard Cromwell. I have missed the ship and all my friends so much. The only thing is that I am nervous about leaving my mother alone. She leaves in such a big house and with dad gone I am worried that she will get lonely and sad. She said that she will be fine, but I can easily sense her true feelings through our empathic bond. I know she is trying to stay strong for me because I have responsibilities in the Delta Quadrant. I don't want her to put aside her own feelings for me. She needs to think of herself some.

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On a lighter note, when I pulled into the station at Devu II I was met by DJ, Kit, Neilson, and Sally. It's so good to see them again. I missed them so much. The only thing is that when I hugged Neilson and Sally I sensed that there was something different about them, something wrong. I didn't notice it before because of the excitement of seeing them again, but when I hugged them I sensed that there was something off especially with Sally. It's like our empathic bond is gone, but Kit and DJ wouldn't tell me what was going on. I have to know, and if I don't this uneasiness I feel will only grow stronger. I think I suspect what it may be, but I'm afraid to admit it. I could tell that Kit was trying to spare the kids feelings, but I can't help worrying about them. They are my family after all. I can't help but feel guilty for leaving so suddenly. Kit tried to tell me that there was nothing to apologize for, but I know that I left in a time that I was needed the most. I could sense pain and guilt from her as she said this like she believes that she did something wrong too. I hope nothing bad happened, but the way I feel it can't be something good. I'm so sorry dear ones. I'm so sorry.

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Chief Science Officer's Log Stardate 2420.10.07

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It is finally time for me to report for duty once again. I am dying to get back to work after being away for so long. I have checked in with Captain Sesgaard as is protocol for taking a leave of absence. He invited me to go with him to main engineering. As we went we talked, which gave us a chance to catch up on things. He mentioned that he had requested a science mission for the ship. I thought that was exciting, but it's unusual because we had not had very many science missions in awhile since I had first came to the ship. I suggested that we find a planet in the Delta Quadrant that we had not explored yet and perform an ecological survey. He that it was a good idea, and while I am excited about this I know from experience that a simple ecological survey will turn into a great adventure. Nothing is ever simple with Cromwell. Things may start out well to begin with, but eventually they will descend into chaos. Of course that is what makes life here in the Delta Quadrant so exciting. I can't wait to see what the universe has in store for us next.